You were the first and also the last,
At least in the fathomable future.
All my life I’ve sought to preserve
This revered concept, a symbol to many.
And it’s still surreal the way it happened,
And how I let myself free and gave myself in
With no regrets – only a deeper understanding.
And I only fell deeper into this hole
Of cyclical confusion and satisfaction.

That’s no way to live your life, they said.
But what did they know and why did they care,
Except that they were right, and I knew that.
But what good is self awareness, and
What use is having the right answers
When we can’t even look at ourselves and
Spit them out.